A year ago I was in darkness, lost and looking at the end of a hollow marriage. I worked to pay the bills; but communication with my wife was infrequent and argumentative. I had alienated my kids. I felt like a stranger looking in on my family as they enjoyed a bond I wanted but just could not share. I was addicted to pornography. It consumed me and controlled my actions. I was fed up with it and I begged God to stop me; but I couldn’t stop.

 

My wife was about to leave me and my kids had endured enough of my being a mean parent, if I could even call myself a parent. My wife went to the pastor of our church. He spoke to both of us and recommended that I start seeing you. Honestly, I was unsure about this. I was scared; but I was sure that I didn’t want to lose my family and be alone. 

 

This experience has been a real eye opener for me. I will admit that it was hard to grasp the concept of being a servant, of always being the one to pursue my wife. For a time I kept asking when she was going to meet me halfway. It was after you shared the scripture about God’s covenant that I really saw how God had humbled Himself. I began to believe that by His grace, so could I. Has it been a difficult year? Absolutely! But it has also been the most rewarding year of my life personally. I understand my wife better and talk to her more. I now have a wonderful relationship with our kids. I have learned that instead of arguing with my wife and staying mad for days or weeks, we should talk. I am still learning to be patient; but I know that this, too, will come with time and practice. This last year has been the most important to me since I finally feel like I am part of a family, the way it was meant to be.
 

My wife is now my best friend. A year ago I would never have believed this was possible. I had struggled with porn addiction for most of my life; but now I am choosing to live in the freedom He has given me. The change is simply amazing. I never thought this day would come. For this I cannot thank the Lord and you enough. Your guidance, and the way you have shown us the scripture and the heart of the Lord, has made a big difference in our life. We will continue to come to you for guidance, because I know we still have much to learn. But from the bottom of my heart and on behalf of my family, I want to extend my sincerest thanks and appreciation for all that you have done.                

                                                                                                                                                    --- Anonymous